Why I'm such a paranoid person, I'll never know. I guess I feel that I will always be a victim to the ironies of life. Insecurity is also another issue... but of course... that has to come from somewhere... who do I blame but myself? My stomach turns into knots as I worry about one mundane thing to another... never finding resolve no matter how minimal the issue. Is it genetic? Is it a part of my upbringing? Or does it have to do with the experiences I've had throughout my life?


I don't know what I need to be more confident about things in my life... financially... romantically... socially... it seems all so difficult.